Summer

Today I had to withdrawal from my summer courses. I don't really have to explain why other than the fact that my dad's getting a major surgery done on his shoulder. I'll have to be helping out a lot around the house and such because he'll be incapacitated as well.
So the first thing on the list is to find a job.
I really really really hope that I can still do something with school though, since I absolutely insist on keeping my mental capacity at the maximum potential for my age. Who cares about physical exercise when you can be a genius?! Naturally, I am not serious.
I talked to my linguistics professor briefly about doing volunteer work on experiments in the psycholinguistic research department. He said to email him so we could set up a meeting. I really really hope that I can do something this summer with experiments and such, especially since two graduate students working on a project already had recommended for me to ask about it. Equipment is expensive so to be able to work with it for free is a great opportunity. I just pray that I'll be able to do something.
If I get a job (which I really need one) and that's it then at least I'll be able to catch up on some reading that I've been meaning to get to. There's a silver lining to everything, right?
I think things are really catching up to me now that I know I have nothing set in stone to keep my mind busy. I've been keeping myself so busy that I don't give myself time to think about things going on for more than a few minutes. The best thing going on this summer is the Josh Groban concert, which is coming up very quickly! Definitely something to look forward to.
This Friday a friend is coming to visit until Saturday. I am so excited. I'll finally be able to play The Lord of the Rings Trivial Pursuit game for the first time in years. (Challenging myself does not count.) No one else wants to play with me. I promise I'm not as good as I used to be since it's been so long since I've played. I'm saying this as I'm looking at 12 Tolkien books lined up on the top of my desk. (To the right of that are Fight Club and Ouran High School Host Club. To the left are my biographies/autobiographies of musicians- including David Bowie and Aerosmith. On top of the Tolkien books are Legion, Yes Man, and other such movies. Says a lot about my personality.) Anyway, it'll be great to see her again.
It figures though that the thing that would make me officially crash is not being able to take summer courses. College courses are something that I really look forward to. Of course I'll be able to take fall courses, and I am so grateful for everything I have been given. This is just that small thing to really feel the weight pressing down on the family. The wave is finally crashing on me.
However, I will persevere and be strong.
My parents need a strong supportive network, and I refuse to fall apart in front of them.