Today was an okay day. The best thing about it was the experiment I got to observe. They said that they'd love for me to come back if I want and I'm good company too. I learned so much about it and can't wait to see the results.
When I got home everything seemed hectic as usual. This morning I was talking to my mom about how I'm tired and school is difficult and she said "there's no harder job than being a mom." I said that I don't necessarily agree because there are tons of jobs that are tiring and really difficult, looking at it from an objective point of view. I also included that I believe that being a mom is a really difficult and tiring job and that I understand why parents are so tired. And I even agreed that I haven't experienced it so I wouldn't know, but I -objectively- think that there are difficult jobs out there, normally because they are really dangerous.
When I got home I checked my facebook (typical right?) and saw that my sister commented on my status saying that I said "being a student is more tiring and difficult than being a mom." Those words never came out of my mouth, and it upsets me that my mom said that when I never even hinted that that's what I meant. I just said that I was tired cause I had class all week and haven't been sleeping well. There was no indication that I thought being a student was more difficult. I said it was difficult, but I agreed that it wasn't as difficult as being a mom. Apparently she took the entire conversation as an argument that I think being a student is harder. I even said, "I'm trying to look at this objectively and I think there are some jobs that are as difficult or as tiring. But I don't know because I am not in a job like that and I'm not a mom."
This is really frustrating because now my family thinks that I am being all angsty and saying that I have it worse off, even though I love the mental stimulation of college. It is tiring and it can be difficult, but I love it, and I don't think it's harder than being a mom.
Hmm, well, not really a good or fair comparison. It's not a competition. My dad always used to say "When you're little, you have little problems, when you're big, you have big problems". I never really understood that until I got older. All he was saying is that to each person, their problems or issues are just as big and important to them as anyone else's issues or problems. Each of us is given some measure of responsibility and trials each day. Jesus said "..sufficient to the day is the evil thereof." Meaning, don't worry about tomorrow, focus on what is in front of you today. If God allowed it, then he will provide the way of escape or the power to overcome today's challenges. We all get ourselves into trouble when we compare our issues or problems or trials to others. We fall into assuming that as long as we doing better than someone else, we are doing right. That's not necessarily the case, or the standard that Jesus is calling us to measure against. I often find that anytime I am learning something new, it is both physically and mentally exhausting. It is much easier to keep the "status quo" then to learn something new. Being a parent is often learning something new everyday and is exhausting, but our ability to handle it, comes from Jesus. You might even say that your time in school is good preparation for parenthood because you start to understand part of why you are exhausted each day :) Hang in there!
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